Saturday, December 13, 2008

Feelings of Inadequacy

Lately I have been spending way more time than I should reading others blog. I extended my blog reading circle and branched out to places I've never been before. Which also leads to these feelings. A) I should be doing something more productive and B)Where do these super women come from.
There are perfect women out there. This post is not meant to insult them, the opposite I envy them. I want to be them. They have the perfect lives. They are beautiful, thin, with beautiful children. They have a perfect marriage. Really LOVE their husbands. Their kids are taken care of, smart & cute & happy. They spend quality time with their kids. WHAT? They cook dinner, clean, have fun vacations. They do extracurricular activites, canning baking, scrapbooking... Plus they have time to blog. They have the perfect lives. Not in the June Cleaver sort of way either. The down to earth, realistic, funny sort of way.

I CANNOT figure it out. Do they not sleep? I am missing something. I long for this kind of life, but as it sit, my hair is not in a ponytail, maybe, just maybe once a month. I am not thin. I think about exercising and then the thoughts exhaust me and make me nervous so I have to eat sweets just to calm down. My marriage, is well, a work in progress. I don't spend enough time teaching Aiden. He still calles everybody "mama" except of course the doggies. The other day I said something about his head and he touched it. What? Who taught him that? feelings of guilt so I taught him "nose". So now he knows 2 things. Dinner, maybe if nothing else came up that day. Cleaning, hah. I have a boy who follows me around and messes up what I clean up. I have 3 dogs that do their share. My house always smells like DOG. And you run the risk of tripping on something and breaking your neck at ALL times. Fun vacations, we have that down, but we're using Aiden's college fund to finance them. I blog but to the detriment of all of the above. How do these women do it? I again don't mean to offend them. I want to be YOU. Give me tips.

4 comments:

jennybrum said...

If you figure this perfect woman thing out, please please please let me in on the secret!!! Especially the thin part. The clean house and college fund would be nice too, but oh to be thin! But I don't really want to change my eating habits...

Lina Hardman said...

This is what Lina is always saying. There are several of these women in our ward (did you mention these women are also really crafty and manage to decorate their houses with classy, elegant items they bought from DI for less than fifty cents?). Oh well. Everyone has their strengths and their weaknesses. Your kid is cuter, and how many of those girls have their realtor's license? Or ran their own floral shop? (And Lina says you're crafty and funny and a good decorator, too)
-Nathaniel Hardman

Diane Owen said...

I think the important thing to remember is that those women have their problems too, they just don't blog about them! I know I'm probably not one of the women you were talking about, so i don't really know the tricks...but you are a great mom, you love Aiden more than anything. I feel guilty some times when I see how much you love to be with him, because I look forward to the times when I get away from my kids. :) So, don't get down on yourself, we all do the best we can...we never feel likes its enough either!

jamie lynette said...

I 2nd what has been posted, by you and my fellow commentors.