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Sunday Woes

Why do we go to church? It is exhausting! This Sunday was fast and testimony meeting. My favorite :-p

First guy gets up to bear his testimony. He starts crying. Aiden asks, "Whats wrong with him?". Josh says, "He's sad because you won't sit still." That actually made Aiden sit still for about 2 minutes.

A lady gets up and starts crying. Aiden asked,"What's wrong with her?" I said, "I don't know."
Aiden says, "Why did her not get her nap? Where's her mommy?"
This continues with each new crier :)

Eggs (by Josh)

Josh posts to the kids private blogs a lot. This was too funny not to share :)

"Aiden loves eggs. This has been compounded by his love of dinosaur
train, the opening title sequence includes the dinosaur eggs hatching.

We went to the stakes live nativity last week and just before you get
to the manger scene there is a chicken farmer inspecting his eggs. I
think aiden almost totally missed the baby Jesus he was so excited to
tell everyone about the eggs and how they were getting ready to hatch.

This morning while getting ready for church he found some Easter egg
coloring stuff. He asked if we could color eggs even without a bunny
(he named both his bunnies Easter). Em set up a few egg shells for him
to color while I made pancakes after church.

After pancakes he brought one egg over and gave it to me. I told him I
named it sir eggs-a-lot the green. He named his other egg ass-a-lot"

I AM Thankful.

I have missed a few days. I didn't realize how hard this would be. It has been a good exercise for me though. (and the only exercise I'm getting ;))While I go about my day I try to pay attention to the things I'm thankful for in case I write about them. It just so happens that by the end of the day, I'm exhausted. I don't know why.....
I hesitate to write this because it may be held against be at a future date.
Today I am thankful for my husband. (and spell checker). But mostly my husband. Josh and I are opposites. We have some hard times. Neither of us are easy to live with. But when I stop and really see what kind of men are out there I realize how lucky I am.

I can honestly say that I have no fear of my husband ever leaving me or ever cheating on me. That is huge for me. I may go out for cigarettes and never come back, but he won't. I may regularly ask to hire a pool boy, even though we have no pool, but he would never want a pool boy. Or girl.

He is a great dad. He does struggle with the 3 year old, but who doesn't. I know I can leave anytime I want. Not permanently, but whenever I need a break, he is happy to help. That may be because he is sick of me moping or yelling, but he never says no when I want to go out.

I am a light sleeper. I am somebody who NEEDS her sleep. He takes the baby in the middle of the night if Owen's not sleeping. He takes him in the morning (O is an early riser) so I can sleep later.

Every Halloween he dresses up in costumes, some he doesn't like, for me and my favorite holiday.

Plus and most importantly, he puts up with my crazy. I think most of us are a little crazy. Well I am a lot. And a whole new kind of crazy that the likes of you have never seen :).
I mostly can't stand my husband, but I sure miss him when he is gone. I hate not being able to talk to him when ever I want. I hate not having his presence in the house. I hate not having somebody to punch 5-10 times a day :p. He is sorely missed.

I love you honey.

29 Days of Thanksgiving ;)

Can I be thankful for Pepto twice? Yep it's that kind of week.

I missed yesterday, bummer.

Lately I have felt like I have no control in my life. It is killing me. So today I CLEANED our family room. Scrubbed walls and baseboards, sorted, organized.... It was something I could put all my anger towards.

I had my temple recommend interview. I cried to the Bishop. I wanted him to fix all my problems. He didn't. But I left with a sense of peace. That if I want my problems fixed I need to fix them. Or just let go. Let go of my contention. I have been trying but I guess I need to be more creative.

I am thankful for Temples. They are beautiful and peaceful and lately the only place I can go and feel calm and like things will get better.

Here is the beautiful temple we were married in. It's alright to be jealous ;)

My greatest blessing

This little boy is the love of my life! He melts my heart. I have never been able to stand to hear him cry. He is sleeping now and as I hear him cough it hurts. I was scrolling through pictures of him to post and there's about a thousand I want to put up.
It bring tears to my eyes, how much I love him and how much joy he has brought to my life. He is the most wonderful gift. I would not live without him.

Oh and I'm thankful for Pepto Bismol! Been drinkin' that stuff like a drunk with his sauce. Then Josh brought me home the tablets (along with the puker). So now I'm poppin' those like an addict :).

WOW! Two thanks in one day! I must be so blessed!

30 Days of Thanks. Day 4

It was as if, my decision to do this, was also a way for the fates to try me. Like they are saying, "Oh you think you have 30 things to be thankful for? I'll show you!"

Today I was sick. I woke up in the middle of the night. That's no surprise, but it was at a different time then the baby. I was super nauseous! Then all day I was have stomach cramping and nausea. I thought it was possibly food poisoning. Josh took the kids out for errands so I could take a bath and relax. As soon as they came home, Aiden called for me. I picked him up to say hello, and he threw up all over the both of us. Thanks for saving that for me buddy.

So granted, I know I have a zillion things to be thankful for. It's just been a rough week, and thinking of the good is hard. It's much easier to dwell on the negative, like vomiting, a bank that double paid your mortgage by accident and now you have no money, a tenant who falsified applications and had her ex husband move in to our property. Totally illegal! It continues, bully guy from island park calling and leaving me a nasty message, another tenant late with rent. Oh and I'm in the Relief Society Presidency, sort of, and I found out that they decided as a ward to only provide ONE meal to new baby families. WTF! I know, that got me all worked up.

I can tell you this, Josh is very thankful for all this other stuff that is bugging me because it takes the attention off of him and I'm not angry with him this week. He actually said that.

So I rack my brain. Think happy thoughts! Today I am thankful for music and the technology we have to play it. ie my Iphone/ipod. I have the strangest mix on my ipod. From Lincoln Park to Miley Cyrus to Peter Paul and Mary to Alan Jackson. Crazy! But oh how music can help to take your mind from things.

If I had some sense, I would know how to add music to my blog so you to could listen.

Whoops, but still Thankful.

Last night while saying my prayers, I got to the "thankful" part and realized, I had forgotten to blog. But I didn't want to get out of bed. So it's late. But I did decide what to blog about last night so it still counts as yesterday.
On a side note, When I got to the "I'm sorry/repentance part" of the prayer, I told the Lord I was a douche bag, hehe. Bet he doesn't here that from most of you :) Now what did I do that caused me to be a douche bag, you ask? I saw a homeless guy on the corner with a sign.......


And I threw eggs at him.....


Just kidding. I looked the other way. Sat there at my red light and wouldn't even look his direction. I felt immediatley bad especially since I have dollar bills in my truck compartment just for that. I must have been in a bitter mood. So now I feel like I need to hunt down the guy, but I don't know what he looks like because I didn't look at him.

I am thankful for this Little Beauty



Our house is small compared to most of our friends. Our house is old. But we have invested so much time and money into it that it's ours. Plus it doesn't help that we are completely underwater on it so we will be living here forever! But at least we have a house. A place to lay our kids' heads to sleep.
I drove by the homeless shelter one Saturday morning and I saw little kids outside playing and riding a big wheel. I don't normally think of children as being homeless. Having to stay at a shelter and share toys, that will never belong to them. It broke my heart and still does.
So I love my little house that is constantly cluttered with toys that my children can play with whenever they want.

Thanks but no Thanks

Today has been a hard day. I am easily angered. I wish my emotions did have such an effect on me.
So in my bad mood I try to think of things I am thankful for.... Of course there is always the other 2 boys but I'd like to write about my appreciation of them, when I'm in a better mood.
So today I am thankful for my freezer!
It stores all my freezer meals for the many nights I don't feel making a meal. Like tonight. But instead of a freezer meal we had candy. Another thing I am thankful for:)

Giving Thanks

Day one.
Day one is easy. Which of my boys to pick. Well this is the one...




I am so thankful for Owen. He is the most wonderful baby. I know many people who have easier babies, but for us, having Aiden first, Owen is a gem. He is so happy. You can always get a smile out of him, well except for the Halloween photo shoot, who knows what that was about.
I can't imagine our lives without him. Although it is easy to forget about him because he is so good. I really wanted to be done having kids after Aiden. I'm so glad Josh wanted more and we got little Owen. I may never sleep again, but he is so worth it.

3 Year Stats

Aiden went to the doctor the same day as Owen, but I wanted some cute 3 year old photos to go with it.

His stats:
29 pounds. 20th percentile.
HIP HIP HOORAY!! On the charts, Finally!
Although, we have cut his hair now, so he probably weighs less.
37 inches tall. 50th percentile

Meh-he-co!

Josh got an all expenses paid trip to Cabo San Lucas Mexico, from work! It was exciting but I had to leave my little boy. Not Owen, cuz he's still attached at the boob. I cried every day except the last because I missed Aiden. But it definitely was not a kid friendly resort. He would have turned that place upside down!

How do we begin? The flight was nice. Aiden has never been a good flier, so this was a pleasant change. We get off the plane in Mexico and are pretty much accosted by timeshare salesman! They lie and try to scare you. They wear official badges and tell you they are with airport transport. That they need to see your documents... We've all seen the movies where somebody gets wrongly locked up in an international prison, so there was some fear in me. Not sure if these people really NEEDED to see my info... This happened twice. Mexico was hard for me because every where we went people were trying to sell us something and sometimes forcefully. It got to the point where I found myself being rude. Which under normal circumstances, I don't mind being rude, but on a nice relaxing vacation, I just wanted to be friendly :).

When we did make it to our transport car, finally, they had a big boy car seat for Owen. He was a little confused as to why he was sitting forward and upright.There were several of Josh's co-workers on this trip....
So we had to be social, neither Josh or I enjoy this, so it was uncomfortable at first. Also these were sales people. Josh was 1 of 3 engineers. Sales people like to socialize and have a good time. Poor Owen was up way too late, way too many nights. On this vacation it got to the point when we would finally get back to the room, I would just lay him down and he would crash! This is another swaddle baby, who at home has to be tightly swaddled. But here he was just pooped. One time I insisted on bathing him before I'd let him sleep. So I got him out of the tub, wrapped him in his towel and went to get his jammies. In 2 seconds he was asleep.
Besides the social aspect of it, we mostly just lied around by the pool. They had amazing bed like cabanas. It was a dream.

Sippin Margaritas (virgin) by the pool

View from our Cabana

We stayed at one of those yuppy resorts that actually had a spa treatment for your dog. We found this little cabana. I'm guessing it for for a dog, since they were more dog friendly then kid friendly, BUT Owen fit perfectly :)
(click on this one. it is too cute enlarged)
Kayaking trip. Owen and I rode in a motor boat.

Our Hotel

Hard Rock Cafe. Of Course!

There is a seal on the tip of the rock. Pretty dead center of the photo.

View from our hotel room

Partying way too late one night :)

I'll leave you with Owen playing with a Mexican baby toy. He loved it! That thing got chucked in the garbage when the second bell came off. Why the second, cuz after the first, he just couldn't bear to part with it. Mother of the year I know. Can you say "choking hazard"?

Out of Order

http://blog.omner.org/2010/08/owen-is-6-months.html

I changed the date so it would consist with his 6 month b-day, so scroll down or click on the above :)

Dieting Sucks!

I decided to only weight myself once a week so I didn't get discouraged after week one I lost 4.5 pounds. Which I guess is good but I want to actually notice and feel smaller.
I am just counting calories and only eating 1200 a day. When you are being strict on how many calories you eat, you find yourself doing crazy things. Like licking the containers. By darn it, I have to count those calories, I better get them!
The reason I am dieting is because Josh was honored to be part of "The President's Club" at his work. I think this means when playing scrategories and you have to list a "President", if the letter is J or A, Then I can now put Josh. But anyway the company is paying for the club to go on a expenses paid trip to Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. That means swim suits, in front of the people Josh works with. I'm terrified!
Wish me luck for week 2. I'm shooting to hit 10 pounds in 2 weeks.

Owen Is 6 Months!!!

Have I told you how quickly this has gone by? I mean with Aiden it dragged on. His first 6 months felt like an eternity. But with my little Owen, time has flown! For the most part he has turned into a good baby. The most part....

I LOVE that he has hair. To you it may not seem like much, but to us it's a lot!

Stats:
Weight: 14lb 7 oz. 8th percentile.
We call him chubby. Strange, but Aiden never really made the charts for weight.
Height: 26.25 inches 50th percentile.
Head: 44.5cm. 75th percentile. "It's a virtual Planetoid."